Living Mindfully — 4th of July edition

by kirwin on July 6, 2009

image via BL1961

image via BL1961

While I usually do my Living Mindfully posts on Saturday evenings, this past Saturday –in the spirit of mindful living– I took the evening off! Imagine that.

Although I skipped delayed the post, I took the time to reflect on any mindful living that had gone on. The instance that stuck out most in my mind was Saturday morning, the morning of 4th of July…

Like many towns, our town has an annual 4th of July parade. Our parade has grown quite popular over the years, and it’s an annual tradition for many locals to stake out their seats the night before by lining up lawn chairs and blankets on the sidewalk. If you’ve grown up in the area {like me} it’s also a chance to have a reunion of sorts. When you go to the 4th of July parade, it’s inevitable that you’ll bump into someone you babysat, attended school with, or had a crush on. For some, this is reason-enough to go.

Call me the Independence Day Grinch, but I skip the parade whenever possible. I realize that parades are fun for kids, and as a responsible parent, it is my *duty* to take them to such a memorable event. However, my parents live in the area, and they are only too eager to take their only-two grandchildren to the parade. It’s a win-win situation.

This didn’t stop me from beating myself up about not taking the kids myself.

As I worked in the garden, connecting the new drip system in the vegetable garden, I could hear the sounds of the parade: the police sirens, the cheers, the live country music… {We live only two blocks away from the parade route.} I kept thinking to myself that I should have put my children’s needs above my own and taken them to the parade. What kind of a mother was I for sending them with their grandparents?…and so on. This went on until my brain switched gears and I began to answer the question: What kind of mother am I?

I am the kind of mother who got up early to dress her kids in their favorite outfits.
I am the kind of mother who slathered on the sunblock to protect their fair skin from the midmorning sun.
I am the kind of mother who gathered hats, sunglasses, and American flags for them to wave.
I am the kind of mother who facepainted their sweet cheeks.
I am the kind of mother who fed them a healthy breakfast before sending them to the parade-of-snacks.
I am the kind of mother who made sure everyone went pee-pee before they left.
I am the kind of mother who knows that parades make kids happy, and that the garden makes this mama happy.

With that, I gave up all feelings of guilt and lost myself in the dirt, the breeze, and my sprinkler system.

This post has been shared with Chatting at the Sky, Tuesdays Unwrapped – a place where special moments are abundant. It has also been shared with Hooked On Houses, since I’m hooked on pursuing mindful living!

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renee @ FIMBY July 7, 2009 at 4:19 am

Good stuff! We’re all different kinds of mamas. I fall short where many other’s shine. But what I do with them I strive to do well and I look for ways to communicate love to them in their individual & unique love languages.

Jo@Mylestones July 7, 2009 at 5:19 am

Great post. It was a wise thought process you talked yourself through! And your conclusion was spot on!

Denise July 7, 2009 at 5:36 am

way to go my friend!! I am so proud of you for turning your thoughts around. This is a great example to us moms that beat ourselves up for not being or doing “it all”.

btw, I got burned out of fireworks after the first 30 minutes.

Positively Present July 7, 2009 at 5:43 am

Great post! I love that “I am the kind of mother who…” part. So well-done and such a great way to share more about yourself! Love it!

Erin July 7, 2009 at 7:56 am

Good for you! Thank you for sharing this post today! I needed it :)

Amy July 7, 2009 at 8:53 am

I am the mom who avoids the Independence Day Carnival. My husband doesn’t understand why I choose not to go. But, I know they have a great time with their dad and it is a time for memory making for them. I stayed home and baked a couple of treats for our picnic. It was a win win for us, too.

Amy @Feasibly Fit Mom July 7, 2009 at 8:53 am

Oh brother. I am not a parade fan at all. Thanks for ideas on turning it around and finding what works for your family. Sounds like everyone was happy.

Rebekah July 7, 2009 at 9:23 am

Oh mommy guilt! What a vicious thing it is. Glad to hear you knew how to stomp on it’s ugly head! ; ) Now I want to see pictures of that garden.

Danica July 7, 2009 at 9:33 am

Great job at reframing your thinking! It’s true, you should be proud of all you do for your kiddos and that you still managed to make them happy while finding “you” time :)

Gina July 7, 2009 at 11:17 am

Great reminder, it’s totally wonderful and acceptable to let go of all those mommy expectations-and it’s way too easy to beat ourselves up when we feel we fall short on those. How precious that your kids got special grandparent time and how nice for you to have a little break. Every mom needs that moments to rebuild sanity!

Sami - Life, Laughs & Lemmings July 7, 2009 at 2:07 pm

Great stuff re changing your mindset Kirwin. I’ve never “met” you in person but there’s no doubt in my mind that you’re anything but a great Mum (or Mom). In my opinion, having time for yourself and showing your kids that you’re worth it so they learn for themselves is just another example of a great Mum Mom!

Dawn July 7, 2009 at 2:20 pm

the kind of mother that loves with her whole heart :) and realizes that she needs to be herself once…

deb July 7, 2009 at 3:58 pm

oh I so agree with how this all transpired. Goodie for you. Sometimes I think I truly take the joy out of some of the things I drag myself to for appearances sake. Happy mom, happy everyone right?
Plus you were gardening, not reading or napping right ? :)

kirwin July 7, 2009 at 10:09 pm

@ everyone~
Thank you so much for your kind words. If I had any doubt or guilt left, you all helped get rid of it!!

I would resond to each of you individually, but I’m up to my eyeballs in {another} project for my sister’s upcoming wedding. Blerg.

Jane July 10, 2009 at 3:10 pm

Kirwin,

This was a heartfelt post that really pulled on my own heartstrings and made me do a lot of thinking. Though it might be common for mothers to feel guilt a lot, I really do a great job of beating myself up. I did it before I had kids, so naturally, it got better once I had more responsibility and less time for myself. The truth is, there is not a remedy for the guilt. Kids know how to push our buttons because they are the ones that put them there.

At least we mothers now know that we are not alone in this. Thank you for your touching story!

xoxo
Jane

Stephanie@Geezees July 10, 2009 at 6:22 pm

great post– i love reminding myself daily about being present in the moment…taking a deep breath and relax…so hard to do sometimes, but so worth it!

We moms are so much better to be around when we take a few moments for ourselves…..

Caroline July 17, 2009 at 4:49 am

I swear it’s a unwritten rule of life that we women (and mothers particularly) just love to beat ourselves up about stuff! We really should all learn to stop. Easier said than done LOL!

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